what a surprise, it has been over 8 years that I have not written anything. Or maybe 7 years, but who is counting. Maybe it was all for a reason.
The past 7 years have been a whirlwind, filled with lows, highs and everything else in between. I had to go really low, only to pull myself back up again and experience an awakening and then commit to my own healing and recovery. I intend to be pretty raw and open in this blog. Dive deep, and tell my story.
They say when you start telling your story, that means you are ready to move past beyond it. But also they say that when you keep repeating the story you run the chance of re traumatizing yourself. It is a thin rope that i have to walk on, but then I am ready to share my story with the world and move beyond it. I am ready to let go of all that hurt, trauma, pain and wounding that have controlled my life for such a long time and give a chance to healing and recovery. All the while i want to stay true to myself and what made me , WELL ME, the lovely and amazing girl who despite being self loathing and at times suicidal found a way out of all the pain and sadness and forged her path. Though she is still failing miserably at times and stumbles hard, but then as always she gets up and pushes forward with a faith in her heart.
I will not follow the chronological order in my stories and i will not guarantee that they are all 100% accurate and exactly as happened and sometimes those stories are just that : Stories. But at the end of the day they are my truth and my salvation. I will celebrate my 44rd birthday in 3 days, well I have taken the whole week off to do so. But yeah I guess starting this journey right before my first day and 2 days after a new moon is rather meaningful. Let's get this party started and trust the unknown, and above it all Love the unknown, for loving the unknown is loving and trusting our very selves.
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