- I always hope this time will be different
- Why ?
- Because I love you and I want you back
- Oh god
- What ?
- It’s just ..
- What ?
- If I come back I have to deal with everything you know , your friends , your family all that
- What’s wrong with them ?
- Nothing , it’s just that they never really seemed to accept me as one of their own . I just put up with them because of you
- Well there might have been an initial resistance
- It never went away . Honestly being away from them for a while has been such a relief
- They have to accept and respect my choices
- Did you ever felt excluded by my friends or even family
- No for the most part they were pretty receptive
- That’s the thing , with your people I don’t really think the problem was me
- what ?
- Look , my friends they accepted you becayse they love me and they trust my choices and they want me to be happy , but yours …
- I am not following
- It seems like they are always worried about you and your personal choices in life, and maybe they have point
- What do you mean ?
- you can be impulsive and sometimes it doesn’t seem that you really love yourself . So maybe they are just being protective of you and maybe they were right
- About what ?
- That you really jumped into the relationship with me . Everything happened so fast . I mean maybe I am not right for you
- Is that how you feel ?
- I question our relationship a lot , when I look back
- you do ?
- Yeah , I just think I was too in love with you . I didn’t notice certain things from the get go
- like what things ?
- It doesn’t matter
- I want to know
- it’s just that we are very different , our approaches to life . You like to go big and I am just a very normal person , honestly I just sometimes I just like to hide out .
- What else ?
- when we met , I just wanted to be with you and settle down with you . But you seemed to have so many unfinished businesses and I ignored them all.
- oh god , is that the Ex business
- No that one came up later and really blindsided me
- it blindsided me too , the way that I said it , was so stupid .
- it’s ok , I am glad you said it . For once you were actually vulnerable.
- it cost me our relationship
- It wast going to last anyways
- you know how you said your friends approved of me . What would they say when they hear we are through ?
- they respect me and my choices , they trust that I have made the best decision for my life . They will probably miss you , but they understand .
- Believe it or not my people ask about you
- They probably want to make sure that I don’t come back
- You don’t think they want me to be happy ?
- No of course , at least some of them . But maybe they were right , in the long run we were not going to make each other happy .
- She meant nothing to me , I never wanted to go back to her
- It is none of my business
- I was just being insecure and impulsive
- When you find the right person you won’t be so insecure and impulsive around them
- Tell me how you feel
- You intentionally hurt me . I just think when you really love someone you can’t bring yourself to hurt them . I could have never done that to you.
- Immaturity makes you do stupid shit
- Then you need time to grow up
- I am trying
- I know , i just can’t . I really think we are both holding on to a dead corpse , it is a really beautiful corpse , but it’s dead nonetheless . We gotta let it go
- If you never let it go
- You don’t know what’s your worth …
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