The way we were

I was this girl who was lonely ,  very lonely and sad . But there was a force in me , a fire an spunk that pushed me through life . I was sad but somehow full of dreams and desires. I was yearning deep down to make something out of myself. I loved the movies , theater , the books . I spent hours in the library all by myself . I read a lot of plays , a lot of poetry , and I wrote with no agenda . Writing was my super power , I literally wrote my way out of loneliness and found love through it . There was a magic behind bareing my heart in front of the whole world . 

 And then life happened , career happened,mortgage happened and retirement accounts 4 of them to be exact . 

 Even grief made its own appearance, it came and stayed for a while. So to make me grieve for the parts of me that never got a chance to live ..

 Birthdays came and left , New Years and new people . They all came and left … I got to live out a lot of life that i missed out on in my 20s .. 

And then came late 30s , with a lot of goals achieved and a lot of life lived .