It was you all along

He finally said it last night , after all this time .. I literally begged him to say it , but he never  seemed to be able to do it . And he said it over and over last night . Right when I let it go , when I geniunely did not care anymore . 

And he said : That was the lesson , the moment that you let it go and don’t care it all comes to you. 

This morning I was grumpy and dreaded coming to work . All he said was : what can I do for you ? And it felt so good

I told him , I want this to be real and my real life outside of here becomes unreal . I want a change of realities …